So instead of having Asperger's I will now have high functioning autism. Sounds worse, doesn't it? Now people are going to think that I am in and out of fugue states with a tendency to bang my head against walls and all manner of other stereotypical autism stuff. Sheesh.
Not that a lot of people even know that I have Asperger's but still. I would like to be able to tell people if it comes up or if I feel it necessary, now I will have to think three times instead of just twice. Most people don't really think that there is anything wrong with me, beyond being vaguely weird that is. I present very well, even the psychologist who diagnosed me didn't think there was anything wrong with me until I did the testing. After 8 hours of testing my Asperger's was showing. I was overwhelmed, overstimulated and fed up. That combined with all of the test results proved what I had known all along: I'm not crazy but I am also nowhere near normal. So the diagnosis was good and I have mostly come to terms with having Asperger's but I am certainly nowhere near coming to terms with having autism. I know it's just semantics but that is how I feel.
Dumb, eh? I can't believe this is even taking up space in my head. What a waste. I will instead concentrate on going out for dinner tonight. I shall begin the preparations now with a glass of wine. Ooooh, I almost typed "a glass of whine" bit of a Freudian slip?