Tuesday, 7 June 2011

Is Aspergers or Autism all you are?

Why is it that when I read aspie or autism spectrum people blogs that all they talk about is their diagnosis?  I would like to think that I am more than a person with something.  I am a person.  Yes, I am weird, I always have been.  Who cares why?  I am in my 40s and the fact that I have opinions, a job, a relationship etc do not all boil down to a diagnosis.  It is reassuring for me to know there are others like me.  Very reassuring!  I spent my life trying to fit in and conform and succeed to a set of standards that not only do I not understand, but that I think are stupid, vapid, and frankly wrong.  But that said, why I am the way I am does not change that I am the way I am.  Does that make sense?  I am the way I am regardless of a diagnosis or a title for my "type".  I have to function in this world whether or not I agree with or even understand the rules. 
  My search for a community has led me to all sorts of strange places, trying to find out where I fit in or kindred spirit types.  And now my quest has brought me to the aspie community.  I love reading something that I can 100% indentify with, it's very exciting.  But now I want to read more.  I want aspie people to write blogs about ordinary life.  Day to day, dealing with whatever, just like we all are.  Maybe my quest must continue, because life continues.  I am more than a diagnosis, I am gnosis, and I shall be known.

Monday, 6 June 2011

Monday night


i can drink tonight, i get to sleep in tomorrow!

Reading blogs....all the time.

  I spend a ton of time wandering around the internet reading random blogs.  For some reason I get on kicks of types of blogs to read.  For a while it was Pro-ana blogs, I find them fascinating.  I like to eat while I read them.  Much like I enjoy drinking while watching intervention.  Sometimes I am into fashion blogs, looking at people's outfits and makeup, but it gets tiresome fast.  I always return to the Aspie blogs because they reflect me best of all.  I found a good one today "Femmeburger".  Love her! 
The DIY blogs are inspiring but naturally I never follow through with doing the great stuff they teach so I just end up feeling bad.
  Anyway, that is what I have been doing this very exciting Monday morning.  There's nothing going on here at work.  I checked out the free songs on I tunes and got 2 of those.  Woohoo!  Soon I will revert to solitaire playing as usual.
  Gotta mention too that I ate my lunch within half an hour of being here and now I'm hungry again.  I have more food but since I am trapped here well into the evening it probably wouldn't be prudent to eat it yet......or should I?  These are the fascinating questions that I am struggling with this fine, June Monday.  I am lame.