Why is it that when I read aspie or autism spectrum people blogs that all they talk about is their diagnosis? I would like to think that I am more than a person with something. I am a person. Yes, I am weird, I always have been. Who cares why? I am in my 40s and the fact that I have opinions, a job, a relationship etc do not all boil down to a diagnosis. It is reassuring for me to know there are others like me. Very reassuring! I spent my life trying to fit in and conform and succeed to a set of standards that not only do I not understand, but that I think are stupid, vapid, and frankly wrong. But that said, why I am the way I am does not change that I am the way I am. Does that make sense? I am the way I am regardless of a diagnosis or a title for my "type". I have to function in this world whether or not I agree with or even understand the rules.
My search for a community has led me to all sorts of strange places, trying to find out where I fit in or kindred spirit types. And now my quest has brought me to the aspie community. I love reading something that I can 100% indentify with, it's very exciting. But now I want to read more. I want aspie people to write blogs about ordinary life. Day to day, dealing with whatever, just like we all are. Maybe my quest must continue, because life continues. I am more than a diagnosis, I am gnosis, and I shall be known.
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