Okay, so I had my initial appointment with my new doctor in January. She gave me reqisition forms for a bunch of tests which I underwent last week. The mammogram was weird and the blood tests were traumatic, I also had to do the pee on demand thing, woohoo. Anyway, the results are in and I have an appointment tomorrow. I'm not worried about the results but I am curious. When I watch shows like dr. Oz they talk about things like cholesterol numbers and stuff, so now I will know what mine are. I have confidence that my numbers will be fine, but I still want to know what they are.
What I am really interested in is her take on my insanity. I told her before that I do not want any drugs but now I am rethinking that. What if there is something that can normalize me? Wouldn't it behoove me to take such a drug? Will my life be better? Will I get a handle on my lack of focus etc? I really want to know. This is pretty much the first time that I have ever been honest (any dishonesty is only by ommission)with a doctor. I know that I am currently physically healthy and any health concerns that I have are the consequences of the stuff that I am doing to self medicate. Does that make sense?
Every tme that I have sought treatment or help in any way pretty much nothing has been done. I know that Asperger's is a condition for which there is no cure but wouldn't it be nice to be able to relax once in a while? Perhaps without having to drink myself into oblivion. I've been diagnosed and medicated for depression many times, but I am not depressed, I'm exhausted! And antidepressants make me feel like I'm slow, wrapped in cotton and very boring. Is that the trade off that I have to make?
I really hope that she has some concrete answers for me, I don't know how much more my liver can take.