Saturday, 31 December 2011

The very last day of 2011

I'm not really a big new year kind of person.  I always figure that I can start a new project whenever or celebrate whenever, I don't need a new calendar to guide me.  This year I find myself a little more thoughtful.  Maybe it's because I haven't had any alcohol since Monday, who knows?
  Anyway, as this year draws to a close and I hear so many people saying what a crap year it's been, I've decided to think about it.  I wouldn't say that I've had a terrible year, but I also wouldn't say I've had a great year.  I have worked more hours in 2011 than I have ever worked before, and I don't feel richer for it.  My personal life has suffered due to work, but it has afforded me the chance to move into a bigger house, which I did in October.  I finally got the stupid asperger's diagnosis which is good and bad, I think the word I'm looking for is "meh".  I managed to lose a bit of the weight that I gained when quitting smoking, but only because I started smoking again.  I haven't been on any trips, I haven't made any new friends.  My relationship has kind of been up and down, but mostly blah.  Hmmmm, I guess it has been a crap year, who knew?
  Now is the point where resolutions come into play.  I want things to be better, I want to work less, I want to look good, I want to feel good mentally and physically, I would like my relationship to be vital and fulfilling to both people in it.  So is making a resolution just putting my intentions out there?  Because I have resolve, I am capable of getting things done, I just don't know how to get that particular list done.  I suppose dieting would be a start, perhaps quitting smoking again?  Getting physically fit would help.  How to work less?  I don't know.  That will be the hardest, I'm a lazy workaholic, in that I don't really do much at work but I like to be here all the time.  Perhaps the use of the word "here" tipped you off to the fact that I am indeed at work?  I am at work on New Years Eve, nothing is going on, my dog is flaked out on the floor, farting his fool ass off right here in my office, at work, on New Years Eve.  Sheesh.
  Maybe I need a vision board or a life coach?  I was sort of looking to Penelope Trunk for guidance, but she makes some crazy choices, including staying with a spouse who beats her and posting pictures of the bruises on her blog.  But what the hell, she's the closest thing to a mentor that I have right now.  I just wish she'd move away from that guy.  Her blog  if you have any inclination to see what I am talking about.  She has aspergers but is also very successful (well, career wise anyway).   I feel bad for her, I bet she's having a different kind of holiday season than she had planned.
  It looks like I haven't really come to any conclusions here.  I did, however, manage to think of some things to focus on in the new year.  So let's consider this a success.

Happy New Year!

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